No family chooses this
I haven’t updated in a while. Things have been really difficult (still are). So much happening - appointments, assessments, reports, meetings (schools, CAHMs, hospital). We’ve been waiting so long for some these things; I just wish everything wasn’t all happening at once. Little C is struggling. Today we should have gone to Forest school - 2 hours of outdoorsy fun at his current school. We were ready to go but then he said he couldn’t do it. What followed was heartbreaking. Little C became hysterical crying saying ‘I want to go but I can’t do it’, ‘just force me to go’. Me trying to pick him up to carry him and him lashing out violently in sheer panic. Then followed extreme crying (screaming, clawing his face, almost vomiting) and saying ‘my life is too hard I just can’t do anything’, ‘please still love me’. This went on for well over an hour. I’d told him it was okay, we wouldn’t go. But the problem was that he wanted to ….but couldn’t. He talks of his brain telling him ‘no...